Tuesday, 27 May 2008 @19:33
The same feeling plagued me again. the feeling of insecurity. worried of how people perceive me when I am totally caught unaware. Sometimes, the subtleties of your actions can really affect another no matter how unknowingly it may have occurred.
I'm really not sure if I''m at fault this time. But I guess what's important is not who's to be blamed but whether or not I can change to make the situation better. We're in different classes now. Maybe that's why I have not been paying much attention to that friend of mine and vice versa.
Just thought of this famous quote by Mahatma Gandhi - "be the change you want to see in the world" haha. ok this sounds a bit exaggerated for my situation. but I guess I need to be the change I want to see in my relationship with my friend.
I went to city hall to help with the house banner painting for the upcoming ignite church camp XD it looks quite cool. my house name is Nakamura. yea the guy in heroes. haha. u can call me a frog in a well but I've really never seen that show. So we were trying our best to make the picture of nakamura look fierce on our banner haha. it was quite interesting XD camp starts on thursday! it will be held at the sembawang GB and BB campsite. The last time I've been there was ehhhh primary 5 during some camp for junior leaders. I'm looking forward to going back again and am especially looking forward to the sermons. The sermons given by CHC never fail to inspire me in little ways. I want to be a cell group leader some day. I think thats an amazing way that I can serve God. Just as how my own cell grp leader impacted my life, it would be great if I could do the same though it seems very much a tall order now.
Been busy with cell membrane notes. I realise my working pace is ULTRA slow. My engine is just not driven up yet. Will get my pace back soon. I hope...