Monday 29 September 2008 @22:05
springed david a surprise today since its his birthday. haha. things went smoothly. i really wanna thank God for that. even though TROY was late... that himbo. hahaha. he was really surprised (i hope) when we (jianhong,zhemin,troy,jane,rachel) appeared at his lift entrance today. so the guys managed to get themselves dunked into the pool...guys...never will understand them. they actually find joy in getting soaked to the skin. jh n david's hp died cos they got submerged in water. i duno to laugh or to cry >< haha.
im feeling really tired. since i slept late yesterday to prepare the gift. im glad it was a memorable one for him. wanna thank jane,jh,troy rachel n zm for making my ultimate plan possible >< haha
came home really tired. but nt exactly happy. im nt sure why. just a bit dazed. mayb im too tired. feeling a little dazed. yea i cant use another word to describe the feeling. someone care to help me explain ?
hmmmmm going australia from 23rd nov to 5th dec. looking forward to it. >< but its so far away! somehow even though promos hv ended, i havent exactly been hving fun. yes im less stressed.but not a lot happier. ive come to realise that the only true joy is the joy of the Lord. something i need to fill myself with each day. i am nt going to waste my holidays. i really want to do something with this time like do bold stuff...do things ive never done before. this bdae surprise is one of them. since ive really never done sth like tt before.so it was quite cool. looking forward to cooking with huiyi! perhaps im gona go to her place to learn hw to cook stuff >< n im planning to organise some christmas party for my class. hope it will be able to pull through ><
i think i lack energy. need to really slap myself awake. -slap- -ouch-
haha. sigh ok. meeting jane tml for lunch. looking forward to it. >< its so easy to talk to her. some people you just have chemistry with >< i love u jane! wad will i do without u!
kk,gtg read my book ><
till next time.
Thursday 25 September 2008 @20:08
im glad promos are over ><
but this entire exam period has left me with some food for thought and i feel that the life lessons that i have learnt from the examination is of greater significance than the how i should calculate ka of a weak acid or how the socially optimum output level is achieved.
these are some lessons I've learnt.
Firstly, I've learnt to cope with failures. Not failing my exam per se but failing to achieve my expectations. Expections are meant to motivate you, not to crush you or stress you out. Life is not about meeting expections, its about making sure that you try to do so the right way. Very often, I tend to do things the wrong way and end up hurting myself instead.
Secondly, your biggest enemy is you. Your self-confidence, your expections, your decisions. In every exam, if you aim to beat yourself, the value of the success is much greater. God gave everyone different talents and a different destiny. Yes, there is so much our human capability allows us to achieve, but does God want us to go that way? Messing up during an exam doesnt mean that you are bad at studies. It just means that perhaps God wants you to see beyond the books, to other talents you may have.Of course, it doesnt mean that we do not do our best in our studies. Put in your best effort, but blame yourself no longer if you feel that you have messed up. I've learnt that very much.
Thirdly, I learnt how to come with stress. Coping with stress doesnt mean that you do not get stressed. It means that when you do, you know the right methods to employ so as to destress. I started panicking when I couldnt finish studying for my paper the next day. My heartbeat raced and i was really feeling the heat. God told me to flip open the bible and see what He has to say to me. Hebrews 10: 35 "Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward." Then He said in the next verse "For you have the need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise." I need to have the confidence in myself and in God, who has confidence in me. I just gotta lift my head up and move on. I found myself saying, relax alicia, its gona be fine, you will get a job next time. hahaha which is true. Im awaiting God's destiny for me.
Finally, i learnt how important it is to be a good friend to everyone at a time when practically everyone isnt. Im not blowing my own trumpet. I learnt this lesson by not being a good friend myself. i went home one day thinking about how i wouldnt like it if i were on the receiving end of things. so i decided to msg some of my friends and drop them an encouragement just like how my cg mates did. it helped me i hope it helped them ><
Well, i hope i can apply what i learnt in the future, pick myself up and look forward to next year which is gona be another exciting year! this year has been very eventful and God has really blessed me with a good class with cheerful classmates who are all so accomodating when i try my best to crack jokes. haha
Count your blessings, many would say. i'm beginning to learn how to do so. I want to thank God for always being there for me even when my Christian walk hit rocky grounds. I want to thank God for my parents. throughout the entire exam period, they have been very supportive and loving. i guess as we grow older, we slowly begin to realise how important they are and how much they have done for us. my father actually agreed to pick me up after school everyday during the promo period so i could settle my lunch and go home early to study. i love you papa! and my mum who took a half day leave just to have dinner with me and accompany me. I want to thank God for good friends who never failed to drop me a verse from the bible (jane, thats you >< and jonovan too) it helped a lot. I want to thank God for giving me peace even though the world is in turmoil; for a reasonably well to do family who can provide for me needs. theres just so much more I can be thankful for.
If God is for me, who can be against me?
That doesnt mean that I will always get what I wish. It means that God has a great plan for me which i will enjoy later. Live by faith, not by sight. I think it makes life more meaningful and worthwhile.
Ok, i sound like im preaching here. lol but these are really my honest reflections from the entire promotional exam season and i felt that it might be good that i put it in words.
man this is a really long post. if uve read till here, i applaud u! and thanks for taking the time ><
In Your Unfailing Love I will live
Monday 8 September 2008 @22:01
promo prep!!! no stress no stess!! haha right. im trying to control my stress levels.
Dear God, take me even higher
Dear God, help me be more secure in who I am
Dear God, take away my worries
Dear God, remove all my fears
Dear God, I am Your Child, I am Your workmanship
Though I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil
Friday 5 September 2008 @12:29
I wonder how many times I've done cost benefit analysis throughout the entire holidays.
1. identify the task
2. measure the cost and benefits of doing so (tho not in monetary terms)
3. predict future benefits and costs and factor it in
4. make the decision...
man... i feel snail like now. i dun feel very happy with my progress cos it seems as tho the whole world is zooming past me!
I guess I need to be secure in my own studying style. it hasnt really failed me yet... i hope it doesnt for this promos. slow and steady wins the race? i just wanna win my own race. and improve. especially for econs ><
i guess was matters is not what i get for promos, but whether or not God is happy in the way i attained those grades. I'm going for cell group today. and as much as it would take up my entire night.i believe in faith that i wld be able to complete my work ><
ok back to work!!!
Monday 1 September 2008 @22:34
stress building up :( but im surprisingly not as stressed as i thought i would be. i hope its not complacency. shldnt be ba. the fact tt im fretting over the questions that i cannot do.
limited time unlimited wants. i want to slp! >< feeling piggish this hols.
so tired. mostly mentally. just wanna sit down n watch some cartoons but i cant :( i wanna eat icecream but i cant... im gona get well soon... so i gotta wait for full recovery before i indulge myself again ><
Each moment I live, by faith I believe, with You, I'm never alone. ><