Friday, 24 October 2008 @22:30
handling disappointments. not as easy as it seems. especially so for me. cos when im sad, its written all over my face. is this a strength or a flaw? i really dun knw. i mean, its the way i release my stress n sadness. if u ask me to stop doing that now, i might just crash due to the accumulation of feelings.
i'd like to be a reliable person, someone you can count on for prayers, someone you can count on to be concerned abt the little things you are going thru when the world just walks by. tts cos, i would like others to do the same to me too i guess. im glad God has blessed me with a few guardian angels whom i will not name here but i hope they know who they are.
After taking the Myers-Briggs' personality test, i discovered that im an ESFJ. Heres wad a website says.
"ESFJs are warm and energetic. They need approval from others to feel good about themselves. They are hurt by indifference and don't understand unkindness. They are very giving people, who get a lot of their personal satisfaction from the happiness of others. They want to be appreciated for who they are, and what they give. They're very sensitive to others, and freely give practical care."
its quite true, the part about they are hurt by indifference. I dont know about the part abt being giving,warm energetic. i guess my good character traits are for my friends to say. But i really do need to feel apprecitated i realised. lol. I just feel a need for my people to acknowledge that i am there. attention-seeking? perhaps. I truly feel very dejected when I feel that people are indifferent towards me, not caring about what i say etc.
"An ESFJ who has developed in a less than ideal way may be prone to being quite insecure, and focus all of their attention on pleasing others. He or she might also be very controling, or overly sensitive, imagining bad intentions when there weren't any."
This, is also EXTREMELY TRUE. Jane would know. after all the things ive told her regarding my relationship with my friends. i do need to work on my security. God gives security. He told me. Place confidence in God, not man. and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He died for me, what else wouldnt He do for me?
the website concluded saying "ESFJs at their best are warm, sympathetic, helpful, cooperative, tactful, down-to-earth, practical, thorough, consistent, organized, enthusiastic, and energetic. They enjoy tradition and security, and will seek stable lives that are rich in contact with friends and family." Haha, I really hope thats true! This personality test actually helped me understand myself better and helped me see some of the strengths i never knew i had before. I want to thank God for these strengths, and i pray that i will have the wisdom to use them wisely :)
till next time. :)