Saturday, 11 October 2008 @17:01
Life and its little challenges. lol. yesterday was one of the worst days of my life.it was really quite hilarious though.
it started out when i overslept. was supposed to reach yck mrt at 10am. but i woke up at 9.15am and i needed to bathe! so haha...i left the house at 9.45am. i was at the lift door and the lift remained at the first level for very long even though i had already pressed the button! So i was wondering what was going on. Finally, it started going up.to my horror, it skipped my level and went to the 17th floor and stoned there for quite a while more. After about 5mins plus of waiting, it came to my level, filled with furniture etc. so i couldnt enter. O.O i pressed for the lift again. it stoned at first floor again! Ok, mayb i was slow, but only then did i conclude that people were moving in to the 17th floor. So i had to climb 13 stories down with my laptop bag!!!!
then during pw, things were quite tense. I was getting very stressed about our lack of progress and chemistry week planning had some hiccups. So i guess i showed everyone in my grp my ugliest side. my face said it all. I felt horrid when i was on my way to cell grp and i figured that i had to apologise to all of them. i waited at the bus stop for my bus. which took ages to come. this bus was supposed to take me to toa payoh. so i decided to cross the road and go to the other side where i could take a bus to yck mrt and head to tampines thereafter. when i went over, 5mins later, the bus to toa payoh came!!! and i waited for 40mins..and the bus to yck never came. so i took another bus. i thot i saw that it was going to yck mrt. TO MY GREATEST HORROR, WHEN I WAS IN THE BUS, THE BUS UNCLE SAID IT DIDNT.So, i ended up in khatib. i was extremely late for meeting my cg.
I eventually got to tampines mrt. I was speaking to jane on the phone in the bus to ivan's place, so my hands were totally occupied. guess wad happened next?! the bus jerked and i staggered backwards and crashed in front of the seat (aka the hard floor!) !!!! so the entire bus stared at me. thank goodness jonovan was carrying my laptop bag. if not my laptop would have died too. so now, i have a big fat wound on my left knee!!! simply hilarious.
life can be embarrassing at times but what i learnt from my good friend was that nobody can make u feel embarrassed unless you allow them too.
oh well, life is interesting and yes there are many things to be happy abt.i just need a change of mindset. I really hope i can work my way towards being more positive and towards handling my emotions better. i felt that yesterday's cell group sermon really spoke to me.
God reassured me that my pw will be fine and so will chemistry week - the 2 things i am extermely concerned about. Cell group sermon was regarding the 4 tests that God often allows you to go through.
1. the Pressure test
2. the People test
3. the Persistence test
4. the Priorities test
Sad to say, I havent exactly passed all these tests. I am still learning how to handle my pressure especially during exams and i believe that it can only get better. With regards to the people test, i realise that i often get disappointed with people because i set expectations of them. but certain expectations and needs, your friends simply cannot fulfill.such things, only God can satisfy. For the persistence test, i realise that i do have a problem being fully committed to quiet time.and finally the priorities test. is God first in my life? what do i think about most? where does my money go first? how do i spend my time? all the answers to these questions reveal what ur priority in life is.
I guess the Christian walk is a journey with lots of ups and downs. God will continuously allow me to get tested. I sure do hope that I will be able to do Him proud when the next test comes. Till then, i gotta build up my spiritual walk and do my daily devotion.
God, i pray for strength