Sunday, 28 December 2008 @22:04
Fear.
I'm ridden with fear. Fear of the 2.4km run approaching like a hungry tiger ready to swallow me whole. It's one of the biggest fears in my life. I really do not know why. I can do the other items reasonably well, i just cant do long distance. I do train. But i fear training. Somehow, i always feel like vomitting when im running my 4th round or so, or if i run too fast, i feel nauseous again. What's wrong with me?!
I really need help. I dont know how. I cant believe I managed to do it this yr. Now, it seems to be mission impossible. I need a miracle.
I cant believe I'm stressed during the holidays. RCLF, 2.4...As...studies in general... I really pray that I do not burn out next year.
I'm feeling sick now. Muscles aching weirdly. feeling v tired. n my throat feels funny. I really feel I cant go on. But I know I must.
I feel like crying. Really dont understand why I seem to be one of the few people with this problem, this phobia. and well few ppl understand how i feel. I feel like screaming... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
someone save me from 2.4km run... I know next time when I look back, im gona laugh at my stupidity. but nows now... my last 2.4km run.