Saturday, 7 February 2009 @23:57
God told me to really let go... i wonder how many times He has told me that but ive never been able to 100% do it. Satan keeps attacking me. he really doesnt makes things easy for me. and the voice of the Holy Spirit is just so soft compared to the voices i hear from Satan. i just gotta choose who to listen to.
Dont look back... look forward. thats what i gotta do. yes it can be quite annoying that people can move on faster than you, but its not abt what they can do now. its about what i have to do.
how does it feel to know that people dont care? i wonder if you ever felt that way. cos i have. and i still do. cos its a fact. no human cares more about you than yourself. and its understandable. but God, cares for everyone of us.
one thing that i feel is very important was mentioned once by my cgl. never be too busy for your friends. especially when they come up and look for you for encouragement. and they need not be sad to need encouragement. cos each time you turn down a conversation, especially in such situations, you unknowingly shut a door between you and your friend. and i wonder how many doors there are left before an impenetrable wall is forged. my goal this year is to keep the doors connecting me to my friends open. i will make the effort to uplift, to encourage, to spend time with people. i will not let others feel what ive been feeling since the start of this year.
never be too busy for a friend. cos God was never too busy for you. :)
of course, we need to study for exams. there may be situations in which we simply cannot put our work down... in such situations, i hope i will make the effort to get back to the person. especially since this year its the A levels.
i need to let go of the stifling thought that no one cares. cos it isnt important anymore. cos what matters is that I care. and i believe, as long as one person cares in this world, God can still move. :)
Dear Lord, will you help me care more about others. will you help me let go of the past even though it seems to stare right at my face everyday. Thank you for reminding me that in You, ALL things are new.
In Jesus' name,
Amen :)