Saturday, 28 February 2009 @13:38
im glad i went for cell grp yesterday. we sang a song called There is A Place in Your Heart. it went "there is a place in Your heart i am longing to find. wont You show me. there is a place in Your heart i know i can run to and hide.wont You show me. show me (x2) show me Your Heart." God revealed Himself so real to me yestreday. I could really see Him in front of me and He showed me His nail-pieced hands. He didnt say much but I cried.
this few weeks have been very trying. as i see my friendships with others improving and some just breaking apart into pieces. theres a time for everything. its all part of His plan. sometimes i wonder why is it i seem to trust people more than i trust God. judging by the fact that i rely on my own strength so many times especially when it comes to studies. God has never let me down. Hes the One i should least doubt.
wanna thank the people who have been there for me throughout this period of time. the people who chose to care even though it was inconvenient. thanks jane, jonovan and weilin. i guess thats how you become the salt and light of the world. by caring when others dont.
its time for me to care more about others. friendship should not just be focused on what your friend can do for you but what you can do for them. its something irrational... emotions are irrational. but sometimes, they just have to take precedence.
RCLF publicity is taking a toll on me. so is jc life. A levels seems so important. after all, its gona determine my job.
God told me, not to be discouraged. its true. ive been very discouraged these days. especially since the amount of effort i have put into publicity seemed to hv come to naught.
All things happen for a reason.
the Lord will be my CONFIDENCE. (proverbs)